The Non-Romantic Adventures of a lonely girl

The Non-Romantic Adventures of a lonely girl

This was no adventure to be living.

How do I tell him how I feel about him and that I have a crush on him, which was the very question on Heidi's lip? Though she didn't quite have the answer to her question she thought to herself I need to tell him. A year before she met this particular man that was brought into her life. Heidi was a single girl who wasn't looking for love when Greg walked into her life. Greg was the man, that Heidi had fallen for but also was her boss at her workplace. She was a photographer at Greg's photography studio. He was a handsome looking man with glasses, green eyes, brown hair; he wasn't fat nor skinny and only 5'10. He was a married man at the time of her starting her work there at the company. What got Heidi's attention about him was his ability to tell her that everything she did was perfect, from using an extension cord and editing software. She was a bit inexperienced at photography and using software, she never went to photography school and all of her learning was on the job. Greg took a chance on her even though knowing she was inexperienced that he could lose money and his reputation as a photographer. He taught her how to use a digital camera when he told her that he wanted to help her to develop her camera skills, she thought nothing of it only that he was a nice person and she appreciated his help. One day, she was required to fill out paperwork for a client. She stayed up until 2am to fill out the paperwork and wanted to show him if she was doing the right job filling out the paperwork. He said for a person that didn't have the experience as her, she was doing a great job. He said to her that the paperwork she did was impeccable. They got into the habit of saying hi to each other every morning. She was using the editing software in her office, when Greg walked into her office. Without thinking or looking at her mouse, she grabbed his hand and he didn't move his hand until she moved it. He smiled at her, she was blushing at him. Weeks later he was standing next to her in the editing suite in the office downstairs where he was talking to other people in the company. She overheard him say he was waiting for his divorce to be finalised and that he really wanted to be with someone in the room and that he was sick of being alone in his house. This was the turning point for her. She started to develop feelings for him. She thought to herself it is probably just a phrase that she was going through at the time. But it wasn't a phrase she was going through at all it was really getting to her. One instance when he was doing something strange in front of her and she said to her 'what is my future husband doing?’ She never said that in her head before about no guy, this was an indication something wasn't right. She was upset and removed herself from him after hearing of the news of his divorce but instead he wasn't going to give up. He was getting close to her without her knowing. She wasn't fussed about him getting close to her after they had a conversation together after she wanted to leave the workplace. She lied to him after he asked her was she leaving because of him. She said no she wasn't leaving because of him, but in reality she had fallen for him by the time he asked her. She couldn't handle it falling for this man. She was hinting that she liked him and that she was interested in him. She couldn't stop looking at him. She wanted to leave but something was stopping her from leaving the place. After this she made every excuse in the book to see him. She wanted to get closer and so did he. Again awhile working in the editing suite downstairs, he was often sitting right next to her on the table either on her left side or her right side. They spent more time in the editing suite, editing photos then on location being photographers. He was even bumping into her chair every time they were in the editing suite together. In which got quite annoying to her when she was doing her work. She had to tell him to stop bumping into her chair in which he never stopped but said sorry to her about it when he did to it again. He wouldn't do that to anybody else but her. When he was having conversations with other staff members he would always sit next to her when speaking to them when they were sitting on the other side of the room. He keep staring at her all the time when she was doing her work and when she walked into the room and the front entrance to the building. She went to work every Saturday to complete her work when he always showed up out of the blue. He started flirting with her one day but she shook her head thinking why he would flirt with me. She went on holidays for four months and couldn't stop thinking about the day she would see him again. She returned to work, she went straight to the editing suite and was having problems with a computer in there. She needed help from him but it was the worst possible time for her to see him. He was talking to other staff members who were at his office, when she over heard him talking about a future potential wife. She got jealous but asked him for his help but he wouldn't give her his help like he used to. It was as if she was alone in this and he wasn't willing to give up his time for her to fix the problem. She got angry and frustrated at the problem. She logged off the computer. He asked her did she get the problem fixed. She snapped at him with a no I didn't get the problem fixed. He asked her would she been in next week she replied with 'I'm not sure if I would be in next week as I am maybe busy'. He said if you’re not busy, you can come in to finish your work. After that she walked out in anger. She was thinking is there another woman about to steal the man that I want. She was getting angry with herself for not telling him sooner. She couldn't function properly. She needed to tell him. She wrote a very personal email to him. In the email she snapped at him saying what happens in your personal life is your business not mine and that I really don't care. That she wasn't returning to work. Deep down she did care about him, she just didn't want to show it. This was her way of dealing with the situation that was hurting her so badly. She fully returned to work two weeks after the problem raised. She couldn't even look at him after what he said and she overheard. He grabbed her attention for a brief second when he was talking about editing software that he thought was hard to understand and that he wanted to rekindle his relationship with the editing software. When he said this he looked at her for a second, she was taken back after his comment and looking at her about rekindling his relationship with the software. She didn't know what to do. Why was he looking at her when he said that? What was the point and what was he getting at. They both got into a heat discussion about how the company won't use actors as models as he thought they are useless. When they were discussing it and the heat was on she couldn't take it any more with him and his sexiness. She was getting urges about wanting to tell him. She grabbed her bag and walked out and never returned until the very next day. He held a staff meeting and told them he had resigned from the job. That he was staying for another six weeks and then leaving the country. Her world was turning upside down; she couldn't cope with what was said in the meeting. She walked out and one of the staff members asked her were she was going. She replied to the toilet but in reality she was calling a friend to tell them what was happening. She was freaking out about it. She told them he was leaving and that she had six weeks to tell him how she felt about him. They didn't talk to each other and say hi until she bit the bullet and said hi to him. She tried to tell him but there were too many people around and she was scared about the fact that she might get rejected if he found out when she told him. Six weeks passed and that was the end of trying for her. She didn't manage to tell him but it wasn't as if he was going to say the same thing. She didn't show up to his last day of work as she was too upset and emotional to go, she didn't want to cry in front of him. He was then gone for good. She added him on Facebook and she was waiting and waiting for him to accept her friend request. Sick of waiting she sent him a message telling him that he was her inspiration and that she wanted to be friends with him on Facebook. At the same time she got a message from a close friend about a girl who was pissing him off. She replies to the girl as she was angry and furious. He said something on Facebook and messaged her back saying 'I appreciate you friend request and absolutely will not accept it. She thought everything was going against her. She was wondering did he ever like her or was it just an act to confused her.  Now that he didn't want to be her friend it was clear to her that he was playing her for a fool. She still wanted to tell him how she felt about it. She thought it was too late and that he wouldn't care about it. To this day she still wants to tell him about it. She still has feelings for him but does he feel the same she will never know. He will never know how she truly felt about him. 

Film-Making and Television Production: An Actors Introduction for Dummies

Everything an actor needs to know about how a production runs. A step by step introduction to the world of film-making and Television Production from both the crew’s point of view and through the eyes of an actor.  This includes student film-makers to all the way to the professional shoots with big time directors.

Part 1

Let’s start at the bottom of the chain with student film-makers

So you found that acting job where you have got the audition but the only problem is that it’s unpaid and for the student film-maker’s assessment for their TAFE or university course. You really want to do it but unfortunately you are thinking to yourself “I am not quite sure about it”. Experience is experience for all actors not matter what level of acting that actor has with their acting career. When you get the role it should be the best thing as an actor to extend your skills and your acting showreel.

Time and Deadlines

As a student film-maker, actors are often left wondering why there is little spent on a production that the student has created. Actors need to know that student film-makers are always running on tight deadlines when attending film school. For example I know that students are studying for about 120 hours over 18 weeks including 60 hours of private study. But not only is that but the student required to study other subjects while creating a project. In the professional world of film-making the process is much easier than it is at a film school. The process in the production world is pre-production can take up to 6 months, principal photography takes up to two weeks to complete and post-production can range from 6 months to 10 years. In film school we are likely to get two weeks principal photography and less than five weeks post-production with only one week pre-production. If we ain't complaining and you shouldn't be either as the actor.

Why is there black texta as the titles on the DVD?

As I explained it before student film-makers don’t have the time to create fancy DVD covers or titles for the DVD. Before you complain about the DVD when you receive it in the mail. Think is it really important to complain about it even though complaining about it even though you know it’s a student production. We can't help the black texta its a requirement we do in film school and a hard habit to break.

Student film-makers are the future of the production industry

You are possibly thinking “Why should I care about student film-makers?” Let me tell you something these talented young film-makers are the ones after film-school that will be working with you regardless so being nice to them is needed in order to keep your acting career. So show up on time and treat it like a professional shoot and you will be remembered for doing your job if not you will be remembered as the person who arrived late and was rude to the crew.

Part 2 coming soon!!!

Thank you for reading!!